Yay!
Just checked out some other girls New Year's Eve pics and was proud and relieved to found that I have indeed a way sexier and better body than theirs.
:p
a tough competition
January 3, 2010
brown singlet top
If only people found out what I have done with my mom's brown singlet top, they will surely dropped their jaw to the floor and eventually throw my body with stones.
I am simply a liberated women with the face of an eternal teenager and the attitude of a brainiac, and I do not think anyone would ever suspecting of being there.
I don't think I am a sinner. I am just liberating what is inside me, and if the world has a problem with it, then it is theirs to keep.
Meanwhile, I enjoy the situations of our relationship today.
I am simply a liberated women with the face of an eternal teenager and the attitude of a brainiac, and I do not think anyone would ever suspecting of being there.
I don't think I am a sinner. I am just liberating what is inside me, and if the world has a problem with it, then it is theirs to keep.
Meanwhile, I enjoy the situations of our relationship today.
November 29, 2009
a thank you list
I feel most grateful for...
The chances to learn, to understand, and to know things, evem better than some of my peers at times
The opportunity to meet some of greatest personality ever, like Tiza or Herwi, and being able to learn something from them
To be happy in my own skin
To have a six-year-old cat (it's rare!)
To be sexy (ask Bing-chan :p). And not afraid of being sexually outspoken.
To looked great in my recent pics
To have lotsa great fun with my friends. A colorful social life has never been my best traits, but it's been great in the last couple of months.
To live a hard-knock life
To be born as their daughter. No matter how hard it is. Love you, mom and dad.
To be trilingual
To have been a debater (but some says once a debater will always be a debater)
To be technologically and fashionably advance
To be brave, outspoken, and creative
To be blessed with the ability to write
To be analitical and logical beyond my peers
To adore 90s music
To get discount and access :D
To be able to get into top schools like Labschool High and UI
To score an internship in Metro TV
To be relatively independent
To be healthy
To be pretty
To be an Indonesian (a status which can save your life at certain amount of times. Believe me)
To be present and alive
The chances to learn, to understand, and to know things, evem better than some of my peers at times
The opportunity to meet some of greatest personality ever, like Tiza or Herwi, and being able to learn something from them
To be happy in my own skin
To have a six-year-old cat (it's rare!)
To be sexy (ask Bing-chan :p). And not afraid of being sexually outspoken.
To looked great in my recent pics
To have lotsa great fun with my friends. A colorful social life has never been my best traits, but it's been great in the last couple of months.
To live a hard-knock life
To be born as their daughter. No matter how hard it is. Love you, mom and dad.
To be trilingual
To have been a debater (but some says once a debater will always be a debater)
To be technologically and fashionably advance
To be brave, outspoken, and creative
To be blessed with the ability to write
To be analitical and logical beyond my peers
To adore 90s music
To get discount and access :D
To be able to get into top schools like Labschool High and UI
To score an internship in Metro TV
To be relatively independent
To be healthy
To be pretty
To be an Indonesian (a status which can save your life at certain amount of times. Believe me)
To be present and alive
November 24, 2009
cheating
Is she doing it again?
I have decided that I don't know, and don't wanna know. I am not going to be fuzzy with it, as long as she can keep it away from me. For I am done with her love life. Period.
I do wonder, though. Why does it so hard for her to deal with her loneliness herself? I mean, seriously, I don't get it. I don't have any trouble being alone and partner-less. But then again maybe that is my autistic side doing the talking, and it just doesn't work for people like her.
Someone once asked me whether I still need to have a father figure in my life or not. My answer was no. Though I could imagine my subconscious banging the trapdoor to my awaking mind, yelling rebuttals at my statement, I still firmly believe that I don't need it anymore.
The reason is pretty simple. When you lost something in your life, you're going to spend your life struggling to find it. You're going to search frantically for it, and once you found it, you're going to hang on to it pathetically, and got weakened by this certain object as time goes by.
And the bad guys could possibly use it to their advantage. I don't need to explain any further, but she is a clear example on how you shouldn't show anyone that you got this hole in your soul, unless you want them to use it as a bait.
Therefore, thou shall not show the world that you got a hole in your soul. In fact, it would be even better if you don't have any at all.
That is why I decided to stand proudly and yell, "I don't need a father figure!", for I had to indoctrinate my conscience (at least) to be free of holes and wants. So that nobody will take advantage of me. So that I'm not going to spend my life craving for something I don't have. So that I would be free of being clingy.
And it's just sad to see her being holed up like that
I have decided that I don't know, and don't wanna know. I am not going to be fuzzy with it, as long as she can keep it away from me. For I am done with her love life. Period.
I do wonder, though. Why does it so hard for her to deal with her loneliness herself? I mean, seriously, I don't get it. I don't have any trouble being alone and partner-less. But then again maybe that is my autistic side doing the talking, and it just doesn't work for people like her.
Someone once asked me whether I still need to have a father figure in my life or not. My answer was no. Though I could imagine my subconscious banging the trapdoor to my awaking mind, yelling rebuttals at my statement, I still firmly believe that I don't need it anymore.
The reason is pretty simple. When you lost something in your life, you're going to spend your life struggling to find it. You're going to search frantically for it, and once you found it, you're going to hang on to it pathetically, and got weakened by this certain object as time goes by.
And the bad guys could possibly use it to their advantage. I don't need to explain any further, but she is a clear example on how you shouldn't show anyone that you got this hole in your soul, unless you want them to use it as a bait.
Therefore, thou shall not show the world that you got a hole in your soul. In fact, it would be even better if you don't have any at all.
That is why I decided to stand proudly and yell, "I don't need a father figure!", for I had to indoctrinate my conscience (at least) to be free of holes and wants. So that nobody will take advantage of me. So that I'm not going to spend my life craving for something I don't have. So that I would be free of being clingy.
And it's just sad to see her being holed up like that
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