One says that in order to achieve happiness, you should dare yourself to take whatever risks it may cause.
In this case, it means to risk losing your dearest friend and replacing him with... that certain kind of relationship.
Am still too affraid of all the risks.
But this sudden realization (no, not sudden, actually. It's been there since a long time ago. Just never got to realize them or strong enough to admit it, even in my own head)...
My, such impact a person could have.